Friday afternoon and the world is moving...

Eeesh I say. Capital E. and an emphasis on the 'sh'...

It is interesting to me how comments can be misconstrued. I I added the 'kiss my ass' as initial response but so people know - I would never say that to a lady. Goes against my grain - so any women out there who may think it was directed at you - I apologise - it was not.

Meant for an old male ex-friend. He - well... he is always encouraged to 'kiss my ass' and 'fuck right off' and even the old standard 'go jump off a bridge'

When you are listening to stories about people and taking them as gospel whichout thinking about what that storyteller's motive might be, well this is kinda silly.
I like to look at why people do the things they do as everyone has a motive for everything they do. It can be benign or malignant.

From 'I am doing this because I am lonely and want to spend time with you' to 'I will tell you anything i can to get into your pants' and every possible variation in between. Its when you can't figure the motive out then thats when u should start to worry. But... believe what you want to believe... Doesn't matter to me, I say as I run sobbing out of the room and throw myself on my bed starting to scream hysterically before curling up in a fetal position and slowly rocking myself to oblivion... But seriously...

Some people judge me solely on what they hear. I am sure this happens to alot of people. These are the interesting ones for sure. To tell you the truth faithful readers I kinda take perverse glee in fucking with those ones.

Usually they are wary of me because A. I have been in jail or B. I am a recovered addict or C. I am sooo fucking charming I must be up to something...

I like the people who think my being sick was just a cover to excuse my -ahem- closet drug addiction - Hey people did you hear Cy was not actually sick but using it as a cover to do massive amounts of dope??? That's why he was so skinny. What was up with him? Oh - I bet he fell off the wagon... To these people I say 'bite me' .

I don't give a shit what you think - The people, whose opinion I actually do give a shit about are in my life and I pursue active relationships with them. I am not a perfect man and I have made mistakes - who hasn't? Its the people who stand by me and see me for who I am - not the person they want me to be or the person they heard i was or even the person they think i used to be - those are the people I love and care about - the people I keep in my life.


You may be thinking to yourself 'what is he going on about?" and to you I say...

Glass houses and all that eh?

No matter - next blog entry I promise to talk about a raven.